From an aching heart

I wish you would write back to me.  So much time has gone by, so many of our memories now faded, blurred by the years that passed.  We were stick figures along a southeastern shore  and then travelers across the great plains, Mt Rushmore, Yellowstone and the long open expanses of Montana.  We laughed, held and loved each other as the old was left behind and the new discovered.

Then we passed through the upheaval....but in the end, didn't survive.

Three years have passed and we both had moved on. Others took our places, the ones we had promised, bonded and sealed forever for you and me.  And when I thought those feelings were gone, that maybe they weren't ever real at all,  one day a voice with your name came through my iPhone and in an awkward panic, I was a stranger onto you.

A month has now passed and I wanted to say I'm sorry.  Those special feelings never ended and my love for what we had will stay with me as a treasure of my life.  As my end comes closer, a certain clarity shines through, the times and souls that touched us, touched me, changed me, loved me; they will forever be with me.

Yes, you are there.  Please don't take that distance last month as anything but a tired old soul hiding from his heart.

After all the loves of my life, after all the loves of my life, I'll be thinking of you......
and wondering, why?


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